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LMAo! Yeah that's right bitches! 32% chance! But you know what? That's a LIE cause I could kick their asses! Muahahahaha! So I hope none of you turn into Zombies cause I'll ahve to shoot you in the head, and I REALLY don't want to have to do that but if I gotta, I'll do it!

~The Hobbit~

<-----------LMAO for some reason, Harry Potter doing the OMG face makes it all the more funny!


OK so I haven't posted in a while, so sorry about that. With juggling school, Wesley, and driving a whole hell of a lot...I haven't had time to post! But I have juicy news today!

I went to my first class today, which is the only one that I am supposed to have with Wesley this quarter, but he didn't go to school this week, but anyways. I went to class and GUESS who was there? My Bahamian guy Drew! (You know, the one black guy i've ever been attracted to) Well, he's in my class and he sat by me today and in my head all I could think was OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! <---hence the title of my post today! *giggles*

But what am I going to do? I think Wesley likes me and if eh sees me with Drew, what is that going to do? I automatically flirt! I can't just shut it off! I mean I want to hang out with both of them, but how to do that without giving one more attention than the other? *bangs head on desk*

I don't think that Drew would consider even dating me, not because I'm ugly or fat or anything, but idk. We'll see. But I wonder if Wesley would get jealous? Maybe they'll be friends? Idk. They are in the same major, Game Design of course *smiles* Also something that is VERY funny is that I KNEW that I would ahve more friends in the Gaming Department than in Fashion lmao though I'm NOT changing my major to it. I guess I like being the odd ball? *shrugs*

Well, I guess that is an ok update!

Adieu,
~The Hobbit~

He is like my impossible hope for a dream come true...

***I'm warning you ahead of time...this is an angsty post. You know how i get, so this isn't any damn different. Same shit, different day.***

Lately I've been feeling that I'm never going to be truly happy...that I'm going to have to compromise my life in the direction that isn't the way it should be. I just feel like no matter what, I'm always going to find myself ugly...even if I was thin as a rail, I'd probably hate myself. I know that's terrible, but it's true. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing a boring, ugly nobody. I hate that I get this way--never feeling 100% pretty...ever.
............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ why do I have to go through all the same shit? Am I in fucking Groundhog Day? Did I fucking mess up somewhere and I'm just constantly going through the same emotions over and over again with no hope of ever recovering? You know why I dont have hope or patients anymore? Because I fucking wasted it all away as a kid. Nothing I ever wanted to happen ever happened. Yeah, so what if some of it I'm glad didn't, but I mean why do I ahve to go through nothing? Why can't I change my life? You know why? Because if I keep changing...I'll never stop and if I never stop...I'll loose who I am but even now I don't even know who I am. WHO THE FUCK AM I?...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... no one.